After five long, exhausting days away from home, Lara sat on the Grey Hound bus with her group of "colleagues," so-to-speak. They were en route back to their hometown, in an northern east coast state. It was a semi-small town located on the water, Long Island Sound to be exact. The eight hour ride was drudging and quite dreadful. 1:34 was the exact time the bus began it's journey home. It was also the moment that Lara saw something she had not seen for a very long time.
All the anxiety that she had had over the past few years was gone. In fact, she had not felt the anxiety for one minute throughout the entire trip. Something about being away had, in a way, cured her of her inner demons. Cured was not the right word...temporarily relieved her of them. Lara would not have been feeling them attempting to crawl back into her mind, her stomach, her chest, if she had been cured. They would not being scratching at her sides, begging to get inside her, only to cause havoc, had she been cured. But, for now, she was still able to enjoy a time without fear and anxiety, for she was still temporarily relieved of these monsters. She realized, for the first time in her life, that she wasn't a normally anxious person. No, her house and family provoked these problems from her and being away was the best way to take care of her illness.
This realization did two very distinct things to Lara on the long, extremely boring and exhausting bus ride home. The first of which may be more obvious than the other. She instantly dreaded the idea of returning home, which can be expected. Then she did something a bit more dangerous. She shut down.
Not dangerous in the physical manner, but dangerous in the life ruining way.
THIS NEEDS TO BE EDITED BIG TIME, SO DON'T LAUGH PLEASE! LOL I'LL EDIT IT/ADD TO IT ASAP
All the anxiety that she had had over the past few years was gone. In fact, she had not felt the anxiety for one minute throughout the entire trip. Something about being away had, in a way, cured her of her inner demons. Cured was not the right word...temporarily relieved her of them. Lara would not have been feeling them attempting to crawl back into her mind, her stomach, her chest, if she had been cured. They would not being scratching at her sides, begging to get inside her, only to cause havoc, had she been cured. But, for now, she was still able to enjoy a time without fear and anxiety, for she was still temporarily relieved of these monsters. She realized, for the first time in her life, that she wasn't a normally anxious person. No, her house and family provoked these problems from her and being away was the best way to take care of her illness.
This realization did two very distinct things to Lara on the long, extremely boring and exhausting bus ride home. The first of which may be more obvious than the other. She instantly dreaded the idea of returning home, which can be expected. Then she did something a bit more dangerous. She shut down.
Not dangerous in the physical manner, but dangerous in the life ruining way.
THIS NEEDS TO BE EDITED BIG TIME, SO DON'T LAUGH PLEASE! LOL I'LL EDIT IT/ADD TO IT ASAP
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